If you didn’t know already, I chose to not participate in the two competitions I had planned on in October, and instead begin reverse dieting. I’ll touch base on why I chose not to compete this fall, and also what reverse dieting is and how its going.
It has been just shy of a week since my first competition took place! It’s been a whirlwind of emotions but I thought I’d take a few moments to share my thoughts and experience.
I just passed the 5 weeks out mark for my first competition! It’s both exciting and terrifying all at the same time. For the past 3 or 4 weeks I have been on a meal plan, which is entirely new for me as I have always done IIFYM. I was sick at the beginning so it was really challenging at first. I actually sat at the table one day in the first week and cried. Now, it’s easier, and more of just an everyday thing.
I’ve been asked several times how I got started or interested in bodybuilding, so I thought it may be time to just create a post about it! So, if you were curious…here are the answers!
Some of you may know that I changed coaches this year. I was looking for someone who would be relational, empathetic, transparent, supportive, encouraging and just there for me. (In addition to the obvious knowledge, skill, results etc.) I found an incredible coach and I couldn’t be happier!
It’s been a while since I’ve written. I haven’t really been in the right mindset to write or share, but I think its important to be open and candid. I have entered my improvement season a bit earlier than I had hoped or anticipated. While I had setbacks in August, I ended up getting really sick for the month of September. I came down with the flu which turned into a bad sinus infection. I was essentially out of the gym for the month minus a few workouts, and my diet was pretty awful. The antibiotics I was put on were miserable. I experienced just about every single side effect listed. Everything in me just wanted life to return to normal. My normal workouts, normal eating, normal health.
It’s been a bit since I have given a progress update. I don’t really have any progress pictures that I want to share right now, and check-ins are tomorrow. But I thought I would share where I am at mentally and emotionally right now.
I knew this day would come. The day where I fell flat on my face. In fact, it wasn’t just one day. It was a weekend. I had a breakdown and I didn’t know how to stop it. I felt like a kid getting caught stuffing cake in their mouth with frosting all over their face. That feeling of shame, guilt, disappointment, frustration and just exhaustion. It happened.
There are plenty of obvious changes that have occurred over the years with my focus on fitness and competing. I have basically shrunk in half, put on obvious muscle, changed the way that I eat and view food, and added a structured workout regime. Those are all changes that anyone would clearly notice. But what I want to talk about are the changes that have happened that may not be obvious to you from pictures or social media. These changes are deeper, and are more than my physique.
Progress picture day this week had me nervous! I had a couple rough days at the end of last week where I went over in my carbs. I felt like I was retaining water and was just nervous I wouldn’t show any progress. I even had a dream Sunday night that I got in trouble for some gum. I woke up frantically checking my texts and social media making sure it was just a dream!