If you didn’t know already, I chose to not participate in the two competitions I had planned on in October, and instead begin reverse dieting. I’ll touch base on why I chose not to compete this fall, and also what reverse dieting is and how its going.
It has been just shy of a week since my first competition took place! It’s been a whirlwind of emotions but I thought I’d take a few moments to share my thoughts and experience.
I’ve been asked several times how I got started or interested in bodybuilding, so I thought it may be time to just create a post about it! So, if you were curious…here are the answers!
Some of you may know that I changed coaches this year. I was looking for someone who would be relational, empathetic, transparent, supportive, encouraging and just there for me. (In addition to the obvious knowledge, skill, results etc.) I found an incredible coach and I couldn’t be happier!
It’s been a bit since I have given a progress update. I don’t really have any progress pictures that I want to share right now, and check-ins are tomorrow. But I thought I would share where I am at mentally and emotionally right now.
I knew this day would come. The day where I fell flat on my face. In fact, it wasn’t just one day. It was a weekend. I had a breakdown and I didn’t know how to stop it. I felt like a kid getting caught stuffing cake in their mouth with frosting all over their face. That feeling of shame, guilt, disappointment, frustration and just exhaustion. It happened.
Progress picture day this week had me nervous! I had a couple rough days at the end of last week where I went over in my carbs. I felt like I was retaining water and was just nervous I wouldn’t show any progress. I even had a dream Sunday night that I got in trouble for some gum. I woke up frantically checking my texts and social media making sure it was just a dream!
I never know what progress picture day will have in store for me. Some days I’m thrilled, some days it takes me comparing week to week in order to be excited, and some days I am disappointed with myself. This week I thought for sure I was going to be disappointed because I felt a little bloated. I was pleasantly surprised!
I am potentially 10 weeks out from my first competition. I say potentially because it’s not set in stone and I am taking things a day at a time. I’m still working hard, eating within my macros, and doing the WORK! But I’m just letting the mental stress not get to me. I’ll step on stage at some point, just not 100% certain when!
This post comes from a place where I have my moments of ups and downs. This past week was a really great week for me as far as stress levels go! I was able to keep myself calm, collected and peaceful. Yet I still struggled with staying within my macros. So I wanted to take a moment to reflect on it.