It’s been a while since I’ve written. I haven’t really been in the right mindset to write or share, but I think its important to be open and candid. I have entered my improvement season a bit earlier than I had hoped or anticipated. While I had setbacks in August, I ended up getting really sick for the month of September. I came down with the flu which turned into a bad sinus infection. I was essentially out of the gym for the month minus a few workouts, and my diet was pretty awful. The antibiotics I was put on were miserable. I experienced just about every single side effect listed. Everything in me just wanted life to return to normal. My normal workouts, normal eating, normal health.
It’s been a bit since I have given a progress update. I don’t really have any progress pictures that I want to share right now, and check-ins are tomorrow. But I thought I would share where I am at mentally and emotionally right now.
You may have seen some of my previous pancake recipes on here and noticed that I don’t seem to be eating them lately. Well, here is why: I am cutting. That means that in order to burn bodyfat, I have lower carbs and lower fats in my overall diet. So, sadly, my high carb and high protein pancakes had to go. I still freaking LOVE pancakes, and couldn’t stand the thought of not having a protein pancake every morning! So I created a lower carb version that is packed full of awesome micronutrients!
I knew this day would come. The day where I fell flat on my face. In fact, it wasn’t just one day. It was a weekend. I had a breakdown and I didn’t know how to stop it. I felt like a kid getting caught stuffing cake in their mouth with frosting all over their face. That feeling of shame, guilt, disappointment, frustration and just exhaustion. It happened.
There are plenty of obvious changes that have occurred over the years with my focus on fitness and competing. I have basically shrunk in half, put on obvious muscle, changed the way that I eat and view food, and added a structured workout regime. Those are all changes that anyone would clearly notice. But what I want to talk about are the changes that have happened that may not be obvious to you from pictures or social media. These changes are deeper, and are more than my physique.
Progress picture day this week had me nervous! I had a couple rough days at the end of last week where I went over in my carbs. I felt like I was retaining water and was just nervous I wouldn’t show any progress. I even had a dream Sunday night that I got in trouble for some gum. I woke up frantically checking my texts and social media making sure it was just a dream!
I am no beauty guru, I’ll be upfront and honest about that! However, I do love reading about beauty techniques and tips. Since I live an active lifestyle I have changed my beauty routine/regime a lot. I thought I would start out by sharing some of my all-time favorite haircare products!
I never know what progress picture day will have in store for me. Some days I’m thrilled, some days it takes me comparing week to week in order to be excited, and some days I am disappointed with myself. This week I thought for sure I was going to be disappointed because I felt a little bloated. I was pleasantly surprised!
I have been using Wen for a year now, and when I first started thinking about making the switch I was researching reviews all over the place! It was easy to find mixed reviews or bad reviews but it was a challenge to find good reviews! So, obviously I have given this hair care system a fair shot, and I love it! Curious as to if it may be the right choice for you, or why someone may like it? Read on!
I am potentially 10 weeks out from my first competition. I say potentially because it’s not set in stone and I am taking things a day at a time. I’m still working hard, eating within my macros, and doing the WORK! But I’m just letting the mental stress not get to me. I’ll step on stage at some point, just not 100% certain when!