I’ve been reflecting lately about this past season and really my fitness journey thus far. I’m now in an entirely different phase, I finally accomplished a goal I set out to complete so long ago, and now it feels a little strange. I haven’t quite landed yet on a goal to laser in on and chase, so it just feels a little odd. I’m certainly not wandering or feeling lost, as I still am going through things as I normally would and have improvements to make etc. It just does feel somewhat odd and surreal to not have that ONE BIG goal that my eyes are set on.

I’m taking my time reverse dieting so that my health is on par, keeping my long-term health and love of fitness in mind and looking forward to a little more balance in the coming months. I’ve mentally had my focus on prep for 2 years so mentally it’s just so strange to not be in a prep mode. I kind of don’t know what to do with myself as far as goals and mental focus goes! Haha!

I have some pondering to do as I reverse, grow and balance. I just was asked today even when my next competition is and I said I wasn’t sure yet. I imagine 2017, but I don’t have any in mind or any dates set. I only know I would like to continue to re-qualify for nationals, and do 2-3 shows close together. I don’t have specific ones in mind, I don’t know dates. And heck, all of those things I just said I may feel different about in 4 months! :)

Anyway, on to the point of this post: as I have been reflecting, one word keeps coming to mind. Resilient.

I think if someone could describe me in one word after my time on earth is done, I would want it to be resilient.

I know I haven’t had the hardest life, when you look at the tragedies and injustices people face every day, comparatively I have life easy! But when I look back over the years and the things I have walked through, endured and learned from I wonder how I am still standing and have a positive outlook on life.

I am 27 and yet I know I have overcome things people twice my age haven’t endured. I haven’t let the challenges, defeat, discouragement, depression, tears, despair etc keep me from rising strong. Things didn’t always go as I planned, but they have all turned out for the better.

My fitness journey for instance has been one of determination and resilience. I started with my first gym membership walking in with immense fear. It was entirely new territory for me! I knew myself well enough to know I am competitive and serious. I refuse to quit. So I committed myself to 3 days a week. 

Little did I know I would fall in love with fitness and transform every aspect of my life! I had never heard of the NPC or the bikini division. I would have laughed if you told me I would compete and be nationally qualified!

I chased this dream for YEARS! I never gave up. I failed, I fell down. But I always got back up and kept going! Even if it was slow!!!

Then just this prep I had a lot of body fat to lose. I endured surgery on my foot with a few weeks of zero cardio and lower body work. (The scar still feels like a pebble in my shoe when running!) I endured a terrible sinus infection which had me recovering for 9 days out of the gym and on antibiotics. I sucked it up on meal plans for a bit while eating fish every day (and I absolutely HATE fish!) 

I didn’t sail through. I worked my ass off to get to the stage. I had some moments of tears on the treadmill or hanger tantrums. But I kept the course. I wanted it and I did everything in my control to get there.

I look at who I am, what I want in life and how I am wired, and I can’t help but feel the word resilient is what I hope to be known as.

I don’t say this to flaunt or gloat or for pity. I say this because I think we all should have a word we want to have be what people think of when they think of us. A descriptive word that we sort of live our lives by. I want to be intentional to pursue resiliency in all areas of my life.

Perhaps that will be a word I end up tattooing somewhere…..


Living Fit // How I Got Started

Fitness, Lifestyle, Uncategorized

Recently I was asked how I got started on my fitness journey and how I stay motivated. Those are some big and yet also very simple questions. But as I started my journey, and even now as a fairly newbie to the fitness world, I would have asked those very same questions. When you are first starting out, or even just contemplating beginning your fitness journey, it’s inspiring and helpful to read stories of those you can relate to, and find some commonality with. It puts things on an even playing field, and makes this daunting task feel do-able.

Product Review: Korres

Lifestyle, Obessions, Uncategorized

So a month ago I was given an awesome gift for working at an event. I got a bag filled with three beauty products by Korres. I had never heard of the brand before, but knew they were high end due to the fact that they were gifts given to those who paid well over $10,000 for their table at the event. So, I set out to discover some info about the company, the products I received, and to give them a try! It has been a month now of using the products religiously, so I thought I would give a review.

Academy Awards Part I


Last night I watched the Academy Awards on ABC, and this is the first of two posts that I will be doing about the event. This first one is the most personal. While watching the Oscars, I was brought back to my artistic roots. I started my creative journey with theatre and film. I originally fell in love with the arts through intently watching films, and being engrossed in their magical stories and visions. I then transitioned to acting. I loved being in the spotlight, pretending to be someone else somewhere else. It wasn’t until my senior year of high school that I ventured into other artistic realms and discovered what I love to do. The Academy Awards brought back all of my emotion and love for film.

Vancouver Art Gallery {Art Auction 2012: Desire}


This past weekend I had the incredible opportunity to work at the annual Vancouver Art Gallery gala, Art Auction 2012. I love working events, and this was an absolute blast! I got to experience a huge, high-profile event first hand in a different country, and witness all aspects of it the day-of. The above image was taken by Melissa Baker of Bake Photography during the live auction that took place in the art gallery.

Beyond Belief


Some of you may know, I volunteered this past year with a nonprofit event in its founding year. The Miracle March took place on July 4, 2011 in Gig Harbor to raise money to send those with spinal cord injuries to a research center in Miami. There were over 200 individuals in attendance, and over $12,000 raised! This is incredible! This event started out as a dream for the founder, Patrick Lyn. He suffers from a spinal cord injury that he got while serving in the Dominican Republic a few years ago, and spent months in the hospital. While he was recovering and then starting physical therapy, he met many with similar injuries. He started dreaming of a way to help those who have similar spinal cord injuries, and to use his circumstance to make a difference. The Miracle March started to come together as this dream, and with the help of his friends, family and Newlife Gig Harbor, it became a reality.

Movember- a new twist on No Shave November

Lifestyle, Uncategorized


So you know that ritualistic thing men do every winter….well, every November? The thing us girls tend to dread? The “No-Shave-November” deal…..WELL, this year, I entirely expected my fiance to participate and was thoroughly ok with that. Yesterday he asked me about doing Movember. Now, if you are like me you’re probably thinking….”…movember? what is that? I’ve heard of No Shave November, but Movember? huh??” That was pretty much my thought process at first. He went on to explain that it is a new twist on No Shave November, where instead of just growing this massive mountain man-ish coarse layer on your face, you grow a mustache, (you can have hair on the rest of your face, but your mustache may not touch the rest of it. you need a clear mustache), build teams, and raise money towards men’s health. Apparently it’s this new fad going around. I personally am not fond of the mustache….they tend to look like “molest-aches” and just all around pretty creepy. However, I am all for the fun and spirits of the traditional No Shave November, that I can get behind Movember, especially because it has a good cause behind it. I value my man and his health, and if this raises money towards keeping him with me longer, then YES! :)